current focus
right now i'm jobhunting and trying to get back into work. i've been out of work for a while.
trying to get back into some hobbies. i've started writing music and singing a lot more lately. i missed it.
i also really want to get into social groups/activities and meet people. tired of being a hermit.
life updates
after spending the last 4.5 years out of work relying on government benefits due to constant shitty and deteriorating health, i'm finally trying to get back out there and do something with my life. i'm not 100% health-wise and some things are getting worse, while some things are getting better. but i can't wait forever and i'm tired of wasting my life like this.
i recently came off anti-depressants. some days are fantastic, i feel elated. others i feel a vehemently strong sensation of wanting to do something stupid. the balance is tough. my eyes are also getting worse. i'm trying to do a 180 on my diabetes and have overhauled my diet. it's tough, but nothing worth having comes easy.
ambitions and aspirations
i guess this is where i can keep things light.
- - continue trying to read more. i forgot how much i love it.
- - write more songs. write more lyrics. never give up on the passions of 15 year old me.
- - explore more. learn new instruments, find new hobbies, meet new people.
